I wanna live there fully and permanently. But I have to keep reaching out for work.

I shouldn’t even be around.

I don’t know which is worse: that there is no sense of self anymore, or that I have to put on masks to pretend there is.

It is, but still.

I think I’m finally moving to the mysterious side. I am not mysterious though. I just am.

I can’t relate to either. It is not very good. Not all on me though, I hope.

Oh, that’s a good one. I’m very far from being tech savvy myself, so I gradually tried to remind myself people can not care enough about this stuff to learn even some basic terminology or have other, more urgent concerns. A lot of the service industry depends on this kind of unfamiliarity, I guess.

Have you ever heard something like saying “His Windows is Linux”?

An upgrade to having never heard of Linux but also a downgrade somehow

Or just any message at all

That grok one would betray you under pressure.