cross-posted from: https://lemmy.world/post/46367361

I’m too scared to swipe in any direction on Boo, with what I know about Karma and what they did to me in the cult (Pi Day; they made me have sex with my girlfriend when we were alone and have a slice of blueberry pie later that night! I was in hell!). I got serious fucking issues. I used to be the guy that swiped right on everyone, like 88% of young men do. They plan the design of the machine around you, y’know. Vulnerable populations don’t get readily thrown to the wolves, y’know? God is good. Our culture is engineered. We deliberately keep people who cannot think for themselves at a sixth grade reading level, BECAUSE the Bible is written at an eighth grade reading level. Y’know, that’s the age girls would start to have immaculate conceptions back in ancient Rome. BeCaUsE tHaT wAs NoRmAtIvE tO tHe HuMaN sPeCiEs and still is to some people. Eden is long gone. We can’t master the art lf mastering people to then master the art of mastering narratives, as Angela did, as Eragon prophecized, which since the author was so young, he likely didn’t have the depth to his idea like I didn’t even know my book Of Vic and Vince, about how the best laid plans of Vic and Vince oft go awry, was a direct reference to Of Mice and Men until like a week ago. Iceberg; consciousness is. Weird; communicate potential. Strange; sweating profusely. Had alcohol at ass end of DXM polistirex 1st/2nd plataue trip. One thing of Desylym at God’s request, twelve hours ago. Now a $2.33 things of Fireball an half hour ago is making sweat POUR outta me. This is weird. I’m not hot. I’d estimate 78. It’s humid for some reason. Why? This isn’t normal. Inner/outer? It’s the same thing, man. Kum says speak of Jux, the wonderful soul. He’s been manipulating me for years, silently now. Hidden. It’s Alex. I figured that out about a year ago. Byoomth said his thing he did about truth,what he did when he interned with the CIA. He was a game design major at RIT, and did an internship with a company that was one of six companies tasked with making a game for [Totally Not The CIA Affiliate Company], whose task was to “make a game that teaches the player how to discern truth from falsehood.” Y’know, he said in a way that HIS idea was to make a spreadsheet with pros/cons. I understand what he was saying. He said, that was the idea he posited, as the intern, and they ripped it to shreds. And he learned. He learned deep stste shit. He has spoken of the library he has read. I SAW a ten thousand PAGE sutra he READ to UNDERSTAND it! He’s monk supreme, and he’s as asshole of no comparison. He is amazing at how good he can hurt someone. MUST HAVE LEARNED IT FROM SOMEWHERE IN HIS FAMILY! Ah geez. I just have my father’s blood-stained silver tongue. Dogshit. Shut up Rusterd. It’s all dogshit. I don’t know. I jist fuck up. Over n over. Trying. All I do. It’s going to work out, yea? I know it will! I have the power!